Why I don’t want to talk with “Ex” again ?
After 1 and half year of my breakup. Suddenly, I got the call from unknown number sharp 5:00 p.m. on 5th January. While I was travelling from Delhi to Lucknow. I just picked the call and put my phone on ear and trying to hear Voice from that side. But I couldn’t able to hear anything just because of “Pin Drop Silence” that site. I just said ‘hello’ “Call kiya Jata Hai to, Bola bhi Jata Hai”. Again pin drop silence. Then I brought my Phone in front of my forehead,saw phone number and forced in my brain for recalling that number but unable to recall it. After few second, Phone disconnected. I leaved it and became busy in my work.
After 10 minute, I again got a call from same number. But there was no pin drop silence, I heard a very beautiful voice and single sentence “Pachana Nahi”. I just said “No”. Again heard same voice from that side “Itni Jaldi Bhul Gaye”. I said “Jo bhi ho,call me after 7 January. I recognized that voice. Who is it ? She was my “Ex”. Again heard “Kahi Dusari Jagah Busy ho”. I just cut the Call and so confused that, What should I do ? Because my heart and mind was both opposite each other.
My heart was forcing me ‘Call’ on that number and told actual situation of myself but other hand my mind was trying to suggest for ‘Not calling’ because She ditched me.She broke my heart. All these things were going in mind and hurt.
Suddenly, My phone again vibrated but one time, This was indicating for message. My heart was praying to God “Bhagwan Message Usi Ka Ho”. I opened message box with overthinking and simmering. There was five message,”Please baat kar lo, Main bahut Pareshan hun, Main tumhari life mein Wapas Aana chahti hun, Maine sab Kuchh chhod diya hai” After reading these message, I was so excited that My real love has come in my life again. So finally My heart melted for her. It was heart’s victory over mind.
Now I was extremely waiting for her call. I reached in Lucknow. Next day my phone vibrated with long vibration and I was thinking about her. But This was my brother’s call. He asked about my journey. As My brother’s call disconnected, Phone again vibrated. This was my Ex’s call. Instantly, I picked the call and heard very murmuring voice “Please Maaf Kar Do Na” and started weeping. I said, “don’t worry” What’s your problem ?
She said,”Mujhe Tumhare Sath Rahana Hai” I said, “okay, no problem”. You can stay with this broken hurt. But ‘Tum To Mujhe Chhod Kar Chale Gaye the’.
You didn’t think about me single time. You know ? How did I spend one and half year without you ? She said, “Sorry Babu, Galti Ho Gayi Mai Apni friends se influence Ho Gai thi”. I said, “Okay Ab Chhod Ke To Nahi Jaaoge” ? She said, “never Babu”. That time my condition was like my heart was pumping very fast as it got sufficient blood. We both were very excited to know each other, as We were talking first time. Now everything was going well and smoothly. Slowly slowly one week passed. One day, I called her. Her phone went waiting. After 30 minute, She called and said, “I was not feeling well, So I was talking to my mother. I just said, “It’s Ok”. She said, “Tum Dhokha To Nahin Doge, Na”. I said, why are you thinking negative. “Mai To Vahi Kagaj hu Jisme Tumhara Naam Likha hai, Ab Dusare ka Naam Nahi Likh Sakta”. She smiled and said, “Tum Kitane Cute aur Achchhe ho”.
Suddenly She said, “You are rude person and full of ego”. You always used to do mistake. I said that I am human being ‘Babu’ not Robot. Mistake may be happened by human being. She became silent for sometime and said “Wo Aisa nahi tha.” I said, Who ? She ignored and changed the topic. But I forced. She said, “Tumo Janana Chahte ho” My ‘Ex’. After hearing this, I totally paralyzed and thought that she again started comparing me with others. She said ignore it ‘Babu’, I spoke by mistake. Just chill, your off mood I don’t like. I controlled my negative thoughts and smiled.
Next day, she called me and said you don’t care about me “Jaise Vo Karta Tha”. I frustrated after hearing this. She always used to start talking about ‘Ex’ with me “Aisa tha, Vaisa tha” like this. One day, She said, Can I talk with Ex only for 10 minutes ? I didn’t replied but I thought that those days are not away when I shell again go in ‘COMA’. As I had already gone one and half year ago. Now she was wooing me that she will talk to Ex and me. But She will marry with me.
Now I had encircled in “Love Triangle”. I had known the result of “Love Triangle”. It was just like a ‘live without sufficient Oxygen’.
I didn’t want to create problem again like COMA. So finally decided that I will never talk with “Ex” again.
